On Love and Music, My Return to My Self


Fear is a nasty thing. Sneaky and insidious, it wears many masks such as anger, hatred, apathy, and silence. That last one is the one that became my prison. Having so much you want to say, but not being able to say it. I began feeling like I was trapped in a beautiful prison of my own making. Wanting to feel connected to others, yet so afraid of getting hurt again, or hurting anyone else. This is my journey back to my Self, my heart, my core. How did I break free of my prison? I remembered that I had the key all along, a bit like Dorthy’s ruby slippers. In the words of one of my idols, Amy Lee, “I followed my heart back through that same secret door.” Love is the door. Music is my key to open it. 

Music and horses were my first loves. My brother is eight years older, so I heard the good stuff young. I heard Eddie Van Halen play “Eruption” when I was around 7. I watched Stevie Nicks sing and twirl around a stage around the same time. That’s what I want to do!! I thought. So how had I gotten so far away from music that I rarely even listed anymore, let alone made my own? That is a long, twisted tale that I intend to start sharing. Both in hopes of helping people come to better understand themselves and others, and to better understand myself. 

I invite you to join me on this journey of opening myself up to unconditional love and reconnecting with and sharing my voice. I’m creating a Facebook group for those who feel called to share in the journey of love, self expression, courage, activism, and spirituality. It’s called L.O.V.E.- Let Our Voices Elevate. If this resonates with you, clicking on the box below will take you to the Facebook group. I am also beginning to hold in person sacred circles for those desiring to come together locally to share healing energy, music, honest talk and love.